June 2012

I couldn’t not post tonight.

Nora Ephron was, is and will continue to be, a huge influence on my life and writing. I was shocked and completely heartbroken to find that she passed away today at age 71.

Her writing and filmmaking has helped shape who I am today. I wrote a paper about her for a scriptwriting class in undergrad. I still consider “When Harry Met Sally…” as the greatest rom-com ever written. That script is brilliant (that whole movie is brilliant – I mean, come on).

She writes about what I not-so-secretly hope my future life in New York holds for me. Witty dialogue. Characters with a wide range of emotions. A little bit of self-loathing mixed with hope of ending up with that person who was meant for you. (And dressing on the side…)

As much as I chastise my mom for loving “You’ve Got Mail” so much (*not* my favorite Ephron movie… sorry), it’s still got its merits. Same goes for “Sleepless in Seattle.” Maybe now that I’m older, I’ll get it. I think I have avoided watching that movie in a long time because I know now that I’ll get it, and that kind of scares me. Ephron deals with emotions and relationships and heartbreak and love all in 100+ pages… and it’s like a smack in the face. (I mean that in the best way possible.)

I admire Nora Ephron for her wit and her way with words. In addition to the scripts she’s written and the films she’s directed, I’ve read some of her other work too. I would give my left hand to be able to write like her. She’s really just one of a kind.

I’m legitimately sad about her death, to the point where I’ll probably cry tomorrow. (Hell, I might even cry about it tonight… I’m tired enough.) It’s going to be hard to open up my script to work on it and not Thank God for Nora Ephron and all her work. I would be lying if I said my script was not influenced by “When Harry met Sally…”. It’s the Holy Grail of rom-coms.

I found my copy of “When Harry Met Sally…” on my DVD shelf and will watch it tomorrow. I might even snag my mom’s copies of “Sleepless in Seattle” and “You’ve Got Mail.” I need a chance to grieve and just sit and process what Nora Ephron means to me. I didn’t know her personally, but her work means so much to me that I am still affected by her death.

So, here’s to Nora Ephron – one of the most talented women and one of my all-time personal lady heroes.

Thank you for your heart. Thank you for your wit. Thank you for the laughter and thank you for the tears.

That’s an oxymoron, right?

Anyway, *someone* called me out on not posting as of late, so here’s a quick post about how I have nothing awesome to post about.

I’ve been apartment and job hunting hard core the past week. I mean, I’ve been job hunting like whoa for, like, over a year, but the apartment hunt is in full force. I troll Craigslist for about an hour each night and email the ads that don’t seem sketchy/fit my needs. I heard back from someone this morning, but it likely won’t work out… but, it’s nice to at least hear back from someone! It makes me feel slightly better knowing that someone acknowledged my email and took the time to respond.

I’m still working on my script (after I apartment hunt, I try to write…). I’m on page 115, but the ending is just not there yet. For the past week, I’ve been editing and adding in some scenes. It’s funny to me how much this isn’t going how I planned in my outline. I want to say that’s for the better. I know it still needs a lot of work, but there are a few bits here and there that I am really proud of. I am my own worst critic when it comes to anything I write, so me feeling good about some stuff is a huge step in the right direction.

My favorite professor in college always told us to “write what you know.” I know that’s not an original quote from him, but it still meant a lot coming from him. Does that make sense? What I took away from that is that what you write should come from a place of honesty. It might be greatly exaggerated, but there is a kernel of truth in there somewhere.

As I’m typing my script, I’ve lifted a few things from my own life. A scene near the opening of the film is based off of something that happened to me, but then I grossly exaggerated the aftermath like whoa. Another scene has dialogue lifted from a conversation I remember having with someone in one of my film classes. Yet another scene is based off of a dream I had a few weeks ago. It’s funny when and where inspiration hits. I’ve had a few shower epiphanies. I’ve been getting a lot of inspiration from music. One of my characters is a musician who does a few covers and they are of songs whose lyrics hold special places in my heart. I know this script will likely never see the light of day, but it’s nice to be writing like this again. This is definitely the longest thing I’ve ever written, and to think it’s an original script just boggles my mind. So, I am proud of myself for working on this.

I’m going to get back to editing. I’m hoping the ending will just come to me, and hopefully sometime soon. In the meantime, I’ll fine-tune some stuff, as well as add in a montage I’ve been trying to coordinate for a while.

Have a good one


Sorry I’ve been MIA lately… not a lot has been going on and I’ve been using my evening hours to read and write. Not write on here, obviously…

So, as mentioned in prior posts, I’ve been working on a script. I’m on page 105… this is officially, like, 4 times longer than any other script I’ve ever written. So, I consider that a small triumph on my part 🙂 However, I have no idea how this monstrosity is going to end. I’ve written myself into a rut and am clueless how I’m to escape. Right now I’m going back and adding in some small scenes here and there and tweaking some little things. On the drive home from work today I had a revelation regarding my main character. So… tonight I’ll go back in and fix some of her scenes. Make her a little more thick-skinned, so that way when she does break, it’s more poignant.

I’m also more actively looking for apartments. In my head, I wanted to be out of here during June. We’re in June now, and logistically speaking, that’s not likely to happen. SO, an August move-in date would be ideal. I have my heart set on NYC. I’ve inquired about an apartment – we’ll see if I hear back. I really want to go there next month to apartment hunt. My dad will be going on business and I asked if I could tag along. He shot that idea down like I was a duck and it was duck hunting season. I’m not giving up, though.

It epically sucks because I am fairly sure my parents are not supportive of my wish to move to NYC. I’m an adult and technically I can do whatever I want, but their opinions are important to me. However, I am a little (a lot) bummed because I don’t think they believe in me in the sense that I don’t think they think I could make it there. Yes, I don’t have a job lined up right this very second. It’s kind of a huge Catch 22… a lot of the jobs I am very interested in/qualified for/would LOVe start immediately or request to only apply if you live in the city. Since I do not live in the city right now, nor could I start immediately, I cannot apply. I feel that in order to earn the kind of job I want, I need to be there already. I am confident I could find a job if given the opportunity. It’s finding a place to live that is going to be super hard.

My dad jokes all the time how he wants me out of here, but the second I say I want to just up and move, I get questioned. I’m just super confused to the point where I could probably cry myself to sleep right now.

But I won’t.

I’ll just sniffle a bit and wipe the rain off my face while I try and fix my script some more.

So yeah… I’m dealing with some serious shit inside my head. *That’s* where I’ve been.

Have a good one


So, last night a friend and I went to StatKid’s Apocalyptour in Kansas City and it was AMAZING. I have a bunch of pictures, but I will post them later (when I am not on my phone…).

The show was really, really great. Charlene Kaye opened and she was flawless, as usual. Then, StarKid did an hour and a half show… Holy hell, it was great to see them live again (I saw most of them in the DigiTour last year). The vocal arrangements were tivdsgjjvxsgjvxs. It was really, really great. I’m so glad I got a chance to see them 🙂

After the show, we got pictures with some people from the Team and the band. It’s super crazy to me how lucky I have been to see these people perform (some of them multiple times) over the past year. I do not take that for granted… I know there are StarKid fans out there who will likely never get to see them perform in person.

Now that I saw the Apocalyptour show for myself, I will go back and watch clips from the LA (and later the NYC) show, to see how Darren was incorporated into the show. That should be entertaining.

For now, though, I am going to get off my phone…

Have a good one